I sit.

I dream.

I think.

I write.

I remember.

I forget.

I wonder.

How hard is it to be happy nowadays? You hear stories of hardships and discontent in your everyday travels, but really, how hard DO they have it?  They have legs that they can walk with, lungs they can breathe with, friends that are there for them.. How is it that the things people deem necessary to live.. be taken for granted each and every day?

“What’s the new trouble today, you say?  Oh, so-and-so won’t date you. Damn, that really sucks. Looks like you better scour facebook for a new fling.”

“Oh, no way! Your mom took away your audi they got you for your sweet 16/graduation/whenever else could deem it necessary for a gift of that caliber? What are you doing to do??”

“Ohh my gosh, you’re fighting a drug-addition because your rich parents let you get away with everything, and you complain about it nonstop? Here, have some more vic’s to take away the pain.”

“I can’t believe you keep calling out your ex-gf/bf for being such a slut! That’s bad ass, but anyway who was that boy/girl that just left? They looked completely different last night.”

“You’re having the time of your life living it up! I know it’s hard to suck up being with your friends everyday and not having a care in the world, but hopefully you can grin and bare it!”

“Man, I know waitressing is a hard job and you make hundreds of dollars a week.. but living with your parents must be terrible.. I mean, I would never be able to take not having ANY responsibility. That’s the hood life, I guess!”

My god. The fact that half the world has become desensitized to the life around them is pitiful. What happened to running outside and enjoying the invigorating breeze flowing around you? What happened to skipping stones and watching sunsets? What happened to appreciated every gift you’ve been given instead of looking at everything you have that initially makes you happy and scoffing RIGHT at it?

Smile. Breathe. Appreciate. Care. Love. Share. Memories. Live. Cherish. Think. Remember.

Smile knowing that you can breathe and appreciate others that care enough to love you and share the memories they happily live with and cherish the ability to think about the moments you love to remember.

And remember, if you think you cherish the life you live, the memories you share with others you love and care for, will always be appreciated from every moment you breathe and every smile you carry.

P.M.A.

Pictures are taken for the sole purpose of being remembered, but why are the most memorable pictures the ones that are the ones that want to be the most forgotten? The happiest times we face are the ones we never want to forget, but a picture holds much more than just ink and paper. They hold the true feelings which, at that time, were the most powerful things to exist; solely captured within a simple 8x10 piece of glossly paper speckled with a combination of inks and shading. But one flaw behind them is that the truth behind pictures can be forgotten. They can simply be thrown away, burnt or ripped up, never to be thought of again. The real deal is what lies inside. The mind inside a person will never forget what is meant to last for ages. The goods, the bads; ups & downs. One single person can store more than an entire lifetime of photo albums and remember each memory; good AND bad. And they can’t sugarcoat it, either. A picture can show every good feeling in the world, but what happens in that persons mind during that photo is another story. And that is why what is held inside is so meaningful. They say a picture is worth a thousand words, but a memory is worth not only a thousand words, but an entire lifetime or conversation.

If the institution of marriage or the very thought of spending the rest of your life with one single person scares you, you should rethink the current situation you are in. If in any way, shape or form a friend has an honest opinion about something you are doing, let them have it. Don’t end a friendship over a relationship you may not have faith in because you “think” things will work out fine. I’ve learned the hard way one too many times because of my stubbornness on how to handle things, but if you lose a friendship over something that may not be certain, there are not very many ways to repair what has been had where what could have been had. A true significant other will NOT judge, will NOT be temperamental and will most certainly NOT be upset that you are out with your friends. But in turn they WILL help you plan out your activities that do not involve them, they WILL appreciate waking up to you and ONLY you day in & day out and they WILL (not by force, but by choice), become your and your friends best friend and will be happy with every second spent and not spent with you because they will always know they’ll have you by their side. Appreciation is the key to a healthy relationship; friends AND lovers. See the things they do for you, big or small, and listen to the words they say even if it’s with their eyes telling you they love you. Don’t lose sight of what REALLY matters, but don’t lose what really matters cause you don’t have a clear view.

I’ve seen you at your lowest low, with nowhere else for you to go. I’ve seen you at your breaking point, that no one else should ever know. I’ve seen you at your highest peak, with no room left in life to grow. I’ve seen you like no others have, but now it’s time to let you go.

My general consensus about a lot of the people I come across in my travels is that they are extremely indecisive.  One fad to the next, a new group to join, a new outlook on life.

But you know what?  That rules.  The fact that kids are growing and changing with the times is GREAT …. Except the fact that nobody holds true to what THEY believe in anymore.  They jump the band wagon and get too caught up within what other people are doing to realize who they really are.  Trust me, I know.  I work in the trendiest retail environment known to man and dive into every environment I can.

Stop trying to fit a mold that you’ll never take shape to.  Be your own person, live your life and you’ll experience more than you could imagine that way.  Don’t do something because somebody “cool” told you to do it, do it because YOU want to.

LIVE your life and you won’t be disappointed.

LOVE your life and you’ll never have a care in the world.

LEARN the right thing to do and your head will always be up.

I’m going to use this as something completely different than my FB or twitter or whatever other social networking outlook you see out there.  I may post some pictures, lyrics I write, lyrics that I feel the need to say that describe my current situations and, of course, my current situations.

I’ll say it right now that I don’t care if you like what I post if you choose to read.

Hate.

Love.

It’s all real.

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